This song is the epitome of having fun and not taking things so seriously. But only because life, indeed, is serious. Not to run it in the ground, but I had a stroke, and things changed for me, my mindset and actions to match them, most of all. I think we all need that kick in the rear to get ourselves into gear at a certain point. I just realized today, on the day of releasing this song, that in the bridge, I say ‘cuz the hole in my heart feels like a bullet in my head.’ I wrote this two months before I had a stroke, yet I didn’t know at the time that I did indeed have an actual hole in my heart that later was closed with surgery. I think I was running really fast and going a whole lot of nowhere most of that time. Having an event like this changed me. I’m grateful to have had a reset and I’m happy to focus forward and make music that I genuinely love. If I pick up some listeners on the way that sounds pretty good too. I hope you all find your place and passion. Without it, I think you’ll either chase or run, neither of which will get you to your true destiny. Much Love TB
Just Dust - Fall From Grace
From the top of the cathedral to the bottom of the barrel. People of all shapes and forms and colors have been through so much BS in the last five years. This song and the next four on this EP are an amalgam of my frustration over the last few years of how awful we’ve become towards each other. I don’t think it is inherently our fault when the machine is pushing us to fight and kill each other over scraps. How much longer can we keep this up? With the rigged election coming this November, I don’t see much good in the future on the outside; sometimes, you have to look inside. Fall From Grace is us choosing to neglect the values we know are correct. But when the tube is on (or our phones in hand) and cranked at full volume at full doom-scroll speed, it’s hard to get a clue. Trust me, I get it. This upcoming EP is me trying my best to wake people up in every way possible to STOP giving in to the things that are killing the world we know. ‘Such little gold for your soul.’ I have seen people sell out in ways unimaginable over the last few years, and it’s sickening. Do not trade freedom for security. Will we Fall From Grace or Prevail? I guess we’ve all got a front-row seat to the show. Much Love TB
JUST DUST - The Machine
If the fuel is the media then the flame has all of us burning alive. We are being sold on agenda’s and beliefs we know aren’t true but because the establishment or a certain side or party is affiliated with it then we must support it or we’re forced to be the outcast. No thanks I’ll continue on alone if that’s what it takes. I hope this track seriously resonates in someones spirit because there are too many things we’ve let slide these last few years. It’s time we THINK for ourselves and realize we don’t have to conform, don’t have to act or pretend to be something we’re not anymore. “Hard times create strong men. Strong men create good times. Good times create weak men. And, weak men create hard times.” - G. Michael Hopf It is time to change the narrative. The Machine needs to be brought to it’s knees because it is no longer serving it’s purpose (if it ever did). I think we were promised a lot of thing’s that are smoke and mirrors and the gun always seems to be smoking in our hands when the buck stops. People are starting to wake up and this is the beginning of a new wave and even if it looks like the end I’ll die defending life, values, people, God and a country that helps the helpless. I refuse to give in to the sickness that is running rampant currently. If you don’t wake up it may be your head on the chopping block next. The time for being timid is over. Please relate. Much Love TB
All Your Life
Honestly the first time I heard the mastered version of this song I cried. I just knew that it would help people struggling mentally, physically and spiritually that really needed to hear it. I believe that is my mission with all of the music I’ve made from Metal to Pop. No matter what you are making at the end of the day the main goal is for it to resonate for a particular avatar. I feel that with each of my music releases I learn something new as I go through the process of writing it but also as I release it I learn a lot as well. This last few months has been tough for me lately. I don’t feel as many eyes (and ears) that I know I’m capable of reaching are hearing what I want to say, feels like the world is shouting and I can either stoop to their level and yell or I can continue doing what I’m doing and slowly let people notice my message and let it resonate for them. I’m grateful that God has given me the drive to push through even almost daily my mind tries to trick me into thinking ‘what are you doing this for’ but I refuse, I must. I keep cycling through thoughts of, if I wasn’t doing this then I’d have zero direction and purpose. Just because no ones paying attention now does not mean it will be this way forever. I know what I make is not for everyone but no one else can make what I make and same goes for you. That is your superpower. Do not give up because of numbers and bleeps and bloops on a computer screen, the love you poor into what you make is what keeps you going and at turning point will be what keeps other people going. If you don’t give up then you cannot fail. Much Love TB
Drown in You
I think at the surface this is another song about a failed or struggling relationship but I find a lot of parallels with it to my inner struggles and mental hurdles I have to jump weekly. It’s like everything you want that is worth anything is usually on the other side of hard work and fear. Trying to get there and just own it and not bail is so easy when people say it that have made it but when you’re in the depths of it it really smacks you in the mouth. Drown in You yes could be relational to someone but I also think it can be something even you’re pursuing. ‘You can drag me though hell and I’ll still be right here’ To me that means my music career, no matter how many days I want to give up because the needle doesn’t feel like its moving I have to keep pushing and just think to myself, ‘They don’t know you, they just don’t see it yet’. One day it’s all going to make sense I have to just keep going. I mean what else am I going to do anyways? I’ve thought about about life and death and when I turn 80 I will NEVER regret a song I recorded and put painstaking hours and love and effort into. So if it takes other people a little time to catch on that’s okay. I’ll still be here grinding and doing what makes me want to wake up every day. I hope you find what does that for you, even if no one cares about it right now but you. They will in time. Much Love TB
Striking Matches
I’ve spent lots of different times in my life wasting time. It’s very easy to do with people that don’t deserve your time, jobs, relationships and anything that is not serving you are a moving force. I think the lyrics of Striking Matches may seem directly correlated to a person or relationship with them but I look at it as much more broad. Any number of things can not be serving you that you are putting your time into that you don’t enjoy. Im not saying neglect what you’ve got to get done and do but I’ve noticed recently there were jobs that I hated and yet I kept coming back to day after day even though it was slowly killing me inside. When I had a stroke a few months back it just shifted my mindset and I don’t plan on doing jobs or having relationships that don’t serve me going forward. But the best part is, it’s not been a waste of time because it’s gotten you here, to this exact point. Perhaps even to the realization that you needed to see that this wasn’t serving you. So don’t get down on yourself over it just learn what you can do going forward to better direct and serve yourself. Much Love TB