Honestly the first time I heard the mastered version of this song I cried. I just knew that it would help people struggling mentally, physically and spiritually that really needed to hear it. I believe that is my mission with all of the music I’ve made from Metal to Pop. No matter what you are making at the end of the day the main goal is for it to resonate for a particular avatar. I feel that with each of my music releases I learn something new as I go through the process of writing it but also as I release it I learn a lot as well. This last few months has been tough for me lately. I don’t feel as many eyes (and ears) that I know I’m capable of reaching are hearing what I want to say, feels like the world is shouting and I can either stoop to their level and yell or I can continue doing what I’m doing and slowly let people notice my message and let it resonate for them. I’m grateful that God has given me the drive to push through even almost daily my mind tries to trick me into thinking ‘what are you doing this for’ but I refuse, I must. I keep cycling through thoughts of, if I wasn’t doing this then I’d have zero direction and purpose. Just because no ones paying attention now does not mean it will be this way forever. I know what I make is not for everyone but no one else can make what I make and same goes for you. That is your superpower. Do not give up because of numbers and bleeps and bloops on a computer screen, the love you poor into what you make is what keeps you going and at turning point will be what keeps other people going. If you don’t give up then you cannot fail. Much Love TB
Drown in You
I think at the surface this is another song about a failed or struggling relationship but I find a lot of parallels with it to my inner struggles and mental hurdles I have to jump weekly. It’s like everything you want that is worth anything is usually on the other side of hard work and fear. Trying to get there and just own it and not bail is so easy when people say it that have made it but when you’re in the depths of it it really smacks you in the mouth. Drown in You yes could be relational to someone but I also think it can be something even you’re pursuing. ‘You can drag me though hell and I’ll still be right here’ To me that means my music career, no matter how many days I want to give up because the needle doesn’t feel like its moving I have to keep pushing and just think to myself, ‘They don’t know you, they just don’t see it yet’. One day it’s all going to make sense I have to just keep going. I mean what else am I going to do anyways? I’ve thought about about life and death and when I turn 80 I will NEVER regret a song I recorded and put painstaking hours and love and effort into. So if it takes other people a little time to catch on that’s okay. I’ll still be here grinding and doing what makes me want to wake up every day. I hope you find what does that for you, even if no one cares about it right now but you. They will in time. Much Love TB
Striking Matches
I’ve spent lots of different times in my life wasting time. It’s very easy to do with people that don’t deserve your time, jobs, relationships and anything that is not serving you are a moving force. I think the lyrics of Striking Matches may seem directly correlated to a person or relationship with them but I look at it as much more broad. Any number of things can not be serving you that you are putting your time into that you don’t enjoy. Im not saying neglect what you’ve got to get done and do but I’ve noticed recently there were jobs that I hated and yet I kept coming back to day after day even though it was slowly killing me inside. When I had a stroke a few months back it just shifted my mindset and I don’t plan on doing jobs or having relationships that don’t serve me going forward. But the best part is, it’s not been a waste of time because it’s gotten you here, to this exact point. Perhaps even to the realization that you needed to see that this wasn’t serving you. So don’t get down on yourself over it just learn what you can do going forward to better direct and serve yourself. Much Love TB